The one thing that I learned in my college stats class is that there will always be in this little thing in life called, uncertainty. Well, as you guys have seen there have been a multitude amount of posts within the bloge, which is a first, and I think that's okay. As I spoke in the first post, the day was too long to have it in one post, plus, I mean, who likes to wait forever for their images to load? Anyways, after Ly's Cottie and the rush of capturing the moment I settled back down and started editing.
During the period of edits, which took a long time because I was trying to make the perfect, uncertainty came over me: Was I editing them the right way? I can do a Sh*t ton better than this! Oh, man, why is my computer so slow... not now! All this things came over me over the week I was editing, all of these thoughts came at around 3am, when the night is silent but my thoughts are at their loudest. I kept on going and making sure the edits were how they wanted the style. Uncertainty was still there and the only thing I wanted to know was that if my art was important.
After many moons I had finally finished the photos! I texted Ly to the let her know that they were ready to be delivered, and we decided on a day on which I would deliver them. I usually deliver my pictures via Dropbox, however, I had ran out of space, go figures... I mean, 2gb of storage for someone in the media industry is nothing. I decided to to give the photos via flash drive and the moment I bought the flash drive all the uncertainty came back and I just brushed it away for a second. Later, when I was uploading the pictures to the flash drive I had to say "Hopefully this is good."
When I to Ly's home there were an abundant amount of people there and I was even more nervous about showing pictures!!! I sat down and hoped for the best. The clicking on the soft keys as the entire family scrolled was mind bending and here was the enemy,uncertainty, once again. Somehow, all the anxiety and nervousness vanished when I heard the entire family laughing, but it was like giggle it was a real life "L O L ". They kept on scrolling and going on and the laughs kept on rolling. I kept on getting these small amounts of praise and cheer, which wasn't what I expected. The family had really loved and enjoyed the images. I got a "Good Job" from the main girl, Ly, and by the end of the night I felt like my art mattered and somehow God, Karma, and the Forces of the Universe gave me a pat on the back.
At the end of the day, I just wanted to know that my art really mattered, that I had done my job as an artist. Although there was uncertainty, it did not matter for a second because people loved what I did, it trumped all my thoughts and it felt amazing to know that people loved what I had given them. The late night's I had stayed up made the difference. At the end of the night, I realized that there is uncertainty, the fact of the matter is this life isn't a math test, and so, we can forge on.