Let's take it back 3-4ish years ago: I was a high school junior and had been talking about getting into the digitals arts since summer. I was talking and talking about it and that's all I ever did, today I realize that those words were meaningless. Meaningless because there was zero action to the words I had been talking about, and well, talk is cheap. I really want to address something in this blog post. I just want to be very straight forward this post because, who knows, maybe you'll give symbolism to something that I had no intention of giving symbol to, like when your teacher thinks that the red apple has meaning in the a story, but in your head it's "he got an apple and ate it!" end of story.
I want to talk about hard work and just going with your gut feeling for once in your life, because for me photography and the digital arts were never something that I was certain about, it was just a gut feeling and they were the first time I actually took my gut seriously. The summer before my Junior year I had been inspired by a friend of mine to take up photography, and talked to another friend about getting a camera (DSLR), and I could see it in his face "here he goes again" written all over it when I talked about it. I had bought a camera, and yea, it was cool... it just sat there, so I gave up and sold it because I was not passionate about it. And the cycle continued, I talked and talked, about becoming a photographer, but how would I do that without a camera ? I had to start saving (long story short), I had just enough to buy a camera and lens, well, only if I was willing to borrow money and spend my entire savings on it. This is where the gut comes in! I was thinking about it for an entire week, in high school that's a big deal. When the day came I thought about it, "do I really want to buy it ?" " I have bills to pay!" "I'm going to be flat out broke and owe someone when I do this." were all the thoughts that ran through my head. When I bought the camera body it was a rainy day and my heart was beating at extremely high rate, and in the blink of an eye a majority of my money was gone. The weekend was here and I went to go buy my lens, and the same thing happen, in a second I was broke as a joke and in debt, but it felt right to have this camera in my hands. For some odd reason I had some extra cash in my check and I was able to pay my friend off, and enough to put some away, the universe was on my side, but most importantly, my gut was right. There was no turning back now, my personal legend had begun.
When I first started there was a lot of hate. The whole taking a picture in-front of your bathroom with a DSLR was at its peak and by me getting one people thought I would do the same, and in a way I got it for the hype, but that mentality soon faded away: photography was a do or die type of thing for me after seeing the endless possibilities there were. I got every comment in the book "You're in it for the hype", "you wanna be like that guy", "Bop","Hypebeast", and ( of course) "You suck at it, stop doing it!". I listed to them for about a good week and was actually thinking of just selling my camera, but then I had this giant reminder that the last time I listen to my high school peers it was not a very smart thing, and who the hell cared about what they called me? At the end of the day I was gonna put in the work and make sure that every goal I set in life would be fulfilled, especially when it came to photography and the digital arts.
Over the past year's I feel like I have gotten better, and I'm not trying to sound cocky, but my craft has come a long way; however, this did not come by just chillen' on the sofa, but by just getting out there and shooting whatever. I would go shoot and very rarely did I saw "well, this is a terrible shot." because my mentality was that there was some way to manipulate that image in Photoshop and get it to be with what I saw. Yes, it took an abundant amount of time to look up the tutorials on it and more time just trying to do it myself (Youtube always makes things look easy, am I right?). I kept on doing this to every catalog of photos: sports, portraits, landscape, and photo manipulation. Some of them stuck, while others faded away, and that was it was all about just doing something, instead of nothing... All passions start of like that, I feel. We can't just become great over night, we have to be diligent and sharp-shooters when it comes to our dreams. If it takes 3-4 hours to go through 5 pictures and get everything right and my vision came true it was all worth it. There is a very fine line that separates those that do it for fun and those that make it their life's work. I'm quite satisfied with I have so far, but I know there's way more out there, beyond what I can imagine, and I'm not doing this for anyone else except myself; Yes, it sounds selfish, but at the end of the day this is my personal legend, what I leave behind when I die.
There are a million people that you could blame for your mistakes or not following your personal legend, but at the end of the day there is only one person that is held accountable for every mistake made and every decision you make, and that person is standing in front of the mirror. I'm just here to say become the best damn whatever you wanna be at your personal legend: artist, lawyer, magician, dude that spins that sign at the corner of the street. I'm just an example of a talentless person that decided to follow his personal legend to see what type of treasures lie at the end of it. JUST DO IT FOR ONCE AND LISTEN TO YOUR GUTS AND PUT IN ALL THE WORK IN THE WORLD TO ACCOMPLISH YOUR PERSONAL LEGEND BECAUSE IF YOU WORK HARD YOU CAN HAVE WHATEVER YOU WANT!